Farewell December 2012.

An early farewell to December 2012 and also 2012. Thank you. I won't be emotional with that fact but I can't do much as everyone is too occupied with the new year's eve and 2013 countdown with their families and all. Trust me, I'm fine. 

Let's just listen to this. I never got tired of this song. Not sure why.

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Good morning/afternoon/evening  day to you beloved readers! I hope there's some people out there.

Finally, 2012 is about to end. 

I do not know what to say here. Darn.

I am aware that everyone's posting about farewell 2012, hello 2013 at the moment. I just don't feel like it. I'd love to appreciate the moment. 

Hah! I do not find the relevance of the previous statement since I started the day in jammies and staying indoors. 

Perhaps you are expecting me to contemplate and review the events and moments I experienced throughout the year. I guess not. I can't describe all that in 140 characters or more. Lame excuse. 

I am glad and very grateful hot things are up to this point. 

How about resolutions? You may ask. Well, I would not like to talk about that but I have this birthday wish list. I admit that I am not fretting with the fact that the advent of 2013 marks the second decade of living for kids of my age. Despite the fact that the suffix '-teen' won't appear in our age anymore but it won't hurt if we turn twenTEEN instead, right?

Boxing Day.

Today's rendezvous was beyond spectacular. It made me reevaluate (almost) everything that revolves around me.

I am aware that the previous statement seems cliche but I'm sure you wouldn't believe me when I admit that it is true. The warm and fuzzy feeling that you get when (almost) everyone that you care about are all gathered together.

If only I could pause the time from moving on and just observe everything around me at my own pace, that would really make me understand how everything relates to one and another and a simple (sometimes crucial) decision can make a difference. If only I could be mature enough to do that.

Another attempt to express my feelings and be true to myself, failed. What's wrong with me?

I guess I am trying my best to accept the fact that everyone has and is moving forward. I am still stuck in the past and present. I chose this path and I am and have to deal with it. Not saying that I'm ruing any part of this path and life. Sometimes I wonder, what would've happened if I explored and continued on with the path that I had taken before? How would that affect everything that revolves around me? How would everyone be affected and when?

Whew, I didn't know that this post would be so bitterly emotional and rhetorical

I apologize for being ungrateful and ruining the blessed and wonderful day. Not only that, I learned that I should be more careful with my actions: me spreading the happiness, whilst someone else is dreading with some problems or feeling doleful when someone they love very much leaves for good and the former did not get to say goodbye.

I am deeply sorry.

Enough with the emo ramblings.

I miss my co-pilot. I miss the fact that we usually really spend time together during car rides, despite the fact that some of our conversations during the rides are inappropriate to be discussed when a person is driving. That makes the rides very meaningful, at least in my perspective.

Why do I feel that this post makes zero sense? I need to clear my mind, pronto!

Snowflake.

I have been waiting for this song to be uploaded on Youtube. Actually, I anticipated the music video. The song was released on Jason Chen's website long ago.

I was totally mesmerized with the description:

"My first attempt at a Christmas Love Song! Snowflakes are unique, much like a fingerprint - there are no 2 identical snowflakes. So this is for song dedicated to that one person in your life who is irreplaceable..." -Jason Chen

It really blew me out of the water.

I need to work on expressing my feelings with confidence. Nah, that's impossible and definitely useless.

Enough with the trivial ramblings. I'll try my best to find time to play this song by ear. I can't help myself from being sentimental with ballads.

Hopefully you'll fall for this song too.

Just to be clear, I'm into the music, okay? I think.

Greetings December 2012.

Hello everybody!

Man, it's good to be back. Here, at Blogger.com.

First and foremost, I'd like to apologize for 'bailing out' on you, my respectful readers out there and also for abandoning this site.
I've been piled under tons of assignments, coursework  tutorials, quizzes, pop quizzes, tests and the finals. I admit that I really lost control of time for myself. I guess I am growing up (duh), training and adapting myself to be a more sensible person after all. Experiences taught me a lot.

That experience of experiencing experiences is indescribable.

Okay, that was awkward. I really have to start writing journals, again. I don't express as much as I do, back then. Thank goodness, the finals has ended and that marks the beginning of the term break. Finally, the time to unwind, kick back, relax and sleep!

I know it's already mid December, but Greetings December 2012 and too bad I did not get to bid November 2012 farewell.

It won't be long till the break ends. I have to go back in 3 weeks' time for Summer 2013.

Yes.

Summer.

That happens when your college is using the Southern hemisphere school system.
So much of preparing oneself for the life in the Northern hemisphere and in the end, ending up at the other end of the hemisphere.

Emotion Commotion.

Yesterday I felt multifarious types of feelings. With me being aware of it the whole time. Usually I am very ignorant with that trivial matter.

The day began with me, feeling normal and quite confident with myself with the Calculus test.

Some time before the test started, I felt queasy, had the test jitters and all.

During the test, the emotions felt was very indescribable, stumbled across 2 questions that costed me 11 marks. My reaction was:

Well, let's just ignore that fact.

I felt very excited and all hyped-up after the test since I was looking forward to a rendezvous with some people, whom I looked forward to meet since a long time ago.

I learned that I am not good at surprises. We planned to send someone off at the airport without the person knowing the whole plan and it failed miserably. 

I had zero idea how to describe how I felt at that time, I can say I was devastated. I just couldn't explain myself with everything that happened. Not sure why I didn't have the guts to give the person a call. Maybe due to the fact that that person didn't reply my farewell text message, (which that person usually would do) and another peculiar thing was that person didn't check in via Foursquare.Only when I did( when I was about to leave), that person found out and checked in too. Tried my best to contain all the disappointment and stay normal. I guess we were not meant to meet up before that person left. I knew that I had to wait until my birthday next year for that person to come back for another break.I am very sorry for everything. I really am.

Let's pray that the semester break will fall on my birthday week! Haha!

Despite all that, I couldn't be more happy and thankful that I got the chance to spend the time with my accomplices for yesterday. We did catch up with each other's life progress. To spice things up, I love the fact that we still have our very own antics and was able to endure all that, which really made my day.

In order to make myself feel better, I went to a bookstore year-end clearance sale. I guess it did help make me feel better. One does not simply tear a bibliophile and tomes apart. The sad thing is, I can't read and finish them in the nearest time being. Too much homework. If only I could freeze the time and just experience the world of action-packed spies and philosophy (yup, I decided to change the genre!)

I am pretty sure I make more sense today. Listening to this makes me tap to the beat.

I hope I described well in this post.

Invisible

I love being invisible, I'm there but I prefer people to ignore me, rather than wasting their precious time handling/ enduring my puerile antics.

So much of anticipating the video, when I saw the title  Jason Chen Feat. Megan Nicole, I thought it was going to be a duet or something like that. Turns out that Megan was the heroin in the MV.

At least I'm trying to find my senses through music.


Random (not so random) thought:
Why can't we hang out the people we want to be with so badly? Why do vultures have to invade our personal space and breathe our air? Why can't they do that to other people instead?

Snow cap.

Not sure why, but I am loving my not-so-new snow cap.

I ran out of ideas for the title and the post, okay? I don't describe much as I use to back then.
What's wrong with me? I have no idea. My mind's all cluttered now.

I should be preparing for Friday's Physics quiz and Saturday's Calculus test, yet I'm here.

I can say that there's nothing much to describe, though. Everything seems pedestrian and all. Still in the midst of adapting with the whole situation despite the fact I'm in school for the past 3 months.

I need to find my heart and soul. I guess I left it somewhere. Since I'm loving my snow cap, I am pretty sure that I still have some emotions in me.

Deciding whether to agree or disagree to a topic for my research paper is very confounding for an indecisive person like me.

Choosing someone to propose to is much easier than saying oui or non to a conflicting essay topic. Well, at least on my part, it's not that I know anything about the former. Let's just ignore this statement.

It looks like everyone's back for the mid-term, year-end break, yet I'm still stuck with school.

Don't get me wrong, I don't dislike school.

The other day:

Some notorious kid in class keeps getting on le teacher's nerves and the whole class ended up getting into trouble i.e. quizzes popping here and there. That kid doesn't have any sense, just plain selfish. I usually despise people but I couldn't contain the rage in me the other day. I mumbled "I despise you (referring to that kid)" before le teacher handed out the quiz papers until some of them sitting near me told me to keep calm. I controlled myself, but not that well, I exerted extra force on my paper and I was pretty sure that everyone, even le teacher could hear me writing on my answer scripts.

I'm glad that I did the Maths for the cycle of the pop quizzes. Basically, I keep myself prepared for any circumstances.

The good news: Got the quiz paper back earlier today. Scored full marks on the previous pop quiz. May I be motivated and prepared at all times.


Wow, I just notice that I wrote a lot for this post. Even though it doesn't make any sense, but this is how I work on my research paper, just to keep myself going and eschewing procrastination by all means.

I long for a beach excursion, but with this kind of weather, I shall resume my reverie.

I don't make sense. I don't have any, except for the basic 5 senses.

The Crooner.

I guess I got part of my niche back.

Really digging this song, at the same time switching to another genre for the time being.

The first few times I heard the song, I thought it was Michael Bublé but it wasn't.

Imagine yourselves having the voice and the looks. It's just, wow.

Greetings November 2012!

November! What took you so long? Never mind that, I am glad you're here! Well, I am unsure about that.

I am  19 and 7/12 (GMT +8.00)today!

No more DSTs, convoluted with all the time zone difference thing.

I do not know what to rant about. I guess I need to find my blogging niche.

Bracing myself for the upcoming quizzes, tests and anything college-related. You name it.

Farewell October 2012.

Halloween!

Jack-O lanterns, cool 'stooms everywhere. People are indeed very creative, or are they just being lazy to come up with authentic ideas for their 'stooms? Oh well. At least they can impress people and still look good. Unlike myself. Still being pedestrian and mundane with my own ordinary clothing. Tsk. Tsk.

At least I wanted to use a plain T-shirt with the word 'LIFE' written on it and hand out lemons to strangers.
So much oif the saying"When life gives you lemons..."
I still do not understand the meaning of that quote.

I wonder if it is appropriate for me to tag along for trick or treat-ing? Imagine all
the supples of  candy that might be in my possession. Man, I really need to grow up!

What on Earth is a "'stoom"? , you may ask. It's a slang for costume. Mentioned by Spencer Shay from iCarly.

I think that's enough reverie for this post.

Farewell October 2012.

Despise.

I depise, or more appropriate, dislike typing/creating a post on this tab.

I had to crate this post since, the previous one, which took me half an hour and ended in a disaster.

Scumbag tab, causing inconvenience. never mind that.

 I apologize for the usage of that certain foul lexicon.

I'll be back, I hope.

Drained of Energy.

So, daunting moment phase 1 ended  earlier today. Not sure why I seem to be super duper concern with the assignment.


Perhaps I'm growing up, or at least I think so.(Oh, the irony.)

I am indeed very grateful that a fortnight's efforts are paying off, so far. I never felt so relieved with the fact that eschewing procrastination, even baby steps of doing so and in the end, your work is almost impeccable for any lifted words or phrases from any other sources.

The system detected 4% of those bugs in my work. Well, I can't change the title of the source and why on Earth would a partial quoted quote be labeled as plagiarized? I despise those people who think the same way as I did.

Never mind that.

All is left is to pray for the results, hopefully it's worth all the efforts and time invested with the assignment and

Mid term exams commencing next week, 3 days to be exact.

Not sure whether I can face C++ 101 and all.

After all the hard work, let's take a break, just for a while.

P.s. I'm only into the music and also the cover artist.

Random Ramblings.

Since I'm in the mood to ramble, that's why I am here. Never mind that.

No morning classes and I'm stuck with one assignment due the end of this week. Then again, as usual, I can't find the proper motivation to boost me in order to complete that urgent assignment.

Am trying my best to progress, even for 1%, as long as I can eschew procrastination and end up with (almost) top notch or at least my work makes sense for Friday's submission.

*Ideas for rambling drain out super fast*
Ideas. What are you doing? Ideas, STAHP!
Aaaand it's gone.

Mid terms are in a fortnight. Won't say much about that.

In conclusion I have lost my rambling mojo. The end.

Back to work. Till then, take care and umm, uhh.. Never mind. Just be safe and don't be in despair. If there's anything, just anything, feel free to buzz me. Will definitely try my best to be there for you people.

Speaking of being there for you,

Don't know why this song seems appealing to me, even though the rhythm and melody are just plain and straight forward. Maybe it's the paper origami, especially the orizuru. Don't get me wrong with the song. It's just music.

I'm not old enough to understand the words thoroughly.

Those Daunting Initials.

I know I am supposed to be revising for Calculus test tomorrow but, never mind. I'll do that after posting this.

Never mind that.

The 5 daunting initials after SPM, SAT, O-Levels, A-Levels, Foundation studies and so on:

I heard that it's exam season. Not sure whether I can help you out, but all I can do is pray for your success and may your all your efforts pay off eventually.

Head over to:

http://www.musicforthesoul8000.blogspot.com/2011/12/toefl.html

for my firsthand account of le TOEFL exam last year. Even though already did your TOEFL/ IELTS, just enjoy that post. 

Farewell September 2012 and Early Greetings October 2012!

"Wake me up when September ends" says Green Day.

Was too absorbed with school and only realized September's gone (almost). Really lost track of time. 

The end of September marks the beginning of the mid term exams for me and finals to some people out there

Therefore all the best to all and may our hard work/ efforts pay off eventually. 

If there's any one of you are almost at the highest pressure and also temperature (Invalid Pressure Law), take a break and  just click on the play icon.

and 

Hello October 2012!

Good Life.

I couldn't be more grateful right now, but I am indeed very grateful.

Entering the 4th week of school and September's leaving.

Something occurred to me last Friday and I'm glad it did. I can't recall the last time I felt that way.

Hypothesis: Practice makes perfect and efforts pay off eventually
Conclusion: Hypothesis is proven to be true.

I hope I am able to be motivated with that so-called trivial achievement (it really means a lot to a person like me) and keep up the good work.

Note to self: Eschew procrastination.

Out of the blue,

INPRO 2011: Closing Ceremony.

So I 'heard' tonight's the closing ceremony for this year's INPRO games at UiTM Shah Alam.

I know I'm quite late to post this but hey, at least I am doing it.

I remember how absurd I was last year, for bringing along my SAT book, just to pass the time and  when they separated students according programs and I had to be around my ATU family. Never mind that.

Here are some photos of the crowd, (if possible, don't click on the image, it's a hassle):

The moment I entered the stadium

From the bleachers. 

Middle East Program

Japanese Program

Russian Program

AUSMATs

Part of the crowd

 Last but not least, my awesome ATU family! Image captured right after they've  performed. Great news, we won!

 I'm sorry I can't upload the winning video of them performing. Won't want to be in any trouble.

Entschuldigung.

Earlier today I was so pumped up to blog but then the feeling just fade away. Maybe I was feeling too somnolent. Yes, you may scorn and reprimand me for that. 

Therefore, let's get down to business. Not sure whether anyone bother about this post or know I exist, etc.

Where on Earth am I?

What have I been up to lately?

Am I in the States? Why didn't I inform anyone of you about this?

I won't spill but I can say I am indeed happy with my current condition, doing fine with my studies, adapting well with the changes (after 51 weeks in West Malaysia plus another 5 weeks in le hometown) and hoping that it will stay that way or be even better.

Don't get me wrong for not telling you about my whereabouts, it's just that I think highly about everyone that I don't want people to worry about me since you have far more important things to take care of.

You may despise me for my preconceived notions about you awesome, concerned people out there.

I must emphasize that I'm doing great and hopefully I am able to retain this and change for the better. 

Thank you, though for your concerns and kindness.

Then again, I don't deserve your kindness, I'm nobody.

I'm sorry.

P.s I'm losing my rambling mojo. Need to get my edge, ASAP. 

LEGO®.

Been a LEGO® fan since le parents bought me those colorful plastic toy bricks when I was young.
I've always dreamed of living going here one day. I know I will.

But then, I don't mind going here first.

This is definitely going into my resolution list.

Have an incredible week ahead. Till then, take care and stay awesome :)

Frisbee.

My frisbee flew all the way up here. I volunteered and had to climb up the rocks to get it.

Even though it wasn't with the people you cherish and care about, it was good to spend the day at the beach, after quite a long time.

Yo.

Hi everyone. I am pretty much alive and doing fine. I hope you are too. Feeling indecesive whether I should create a post regarding today's beach excursion tonight or some other time.

Farewell August 2012, Greetings September 2012.

I know, I know. I've been away for quite some time. But hey, be grateful that I still remember you, my superb readers (I do hope there's any). School starts tomorrow, so this is my last weekend. No more breaks and all. Bracing myself for this.

Hopefully I won't be The Picasso-again.
Happy schooling everyone! I think I'm a little late to wish that but, yeah.

The Question.

I can't seem to find the time to answer this question: "When are you leaving for the States?"

I'm sorry. 

We'll just have to wait and pray that I have the time to answer that ultimate question. 

Just So You Know.

I'm unsure whether this post helps.
Kiddo, I hope you'll be strong. La Tahzan. Whatever it is, most of us agree on one thing, you are B-e-a-utiful,  you possess both inner and outer pulchritude. Always be grateful with what you have.

If only I could teleport to where you are right now and sing this to you, emphasizing the "I'll call you Beautiful" part.

Have a safe journey back to college. Hang in there, it won't be long till you come back for the year-end holidays.

Forgive me if this post seems cryptic and all. It's just that things are easier to be said in person.

Pre-Dawn Post.

Gooooood Morning world! Day 3 of Syawal.

Happy Eid Mubarak 1433H . Forgive me for everything, especially my puerile antics and also for leaving most of you hanging with that certain question. To those people, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to that on purpose. There's a reason behind every act or speech.

I'm just a kid. I'll try my best to be a better person but no promises! I am who I am.

Won't tell why I am awake at this moment.

Don't know why am I flattered with the fact that the cat's name is almost similar to mine.

Some of you may (already) ask/ed
"A, when are you flying to the States?"

Brace yourselves, the truth will prevail. Soon.

Super Brief Update.

Greetings and Guten Morgen, world!

It's been a while since the last time I came here.
It's super hard to find time and ramble randomly here lately. It's just that I'm being super helpful and useful to help anyone out for the Eid preparations. By just mentioing that, it's sad to be aware of the fact that this super blissful month of Ramadhan is going to leave us.

I guess that's it for now. I'll try my best to find time to at least post something entertaining but I can't promise you anything. Till then stay awesome and experience this Ramadhan to the fullest while it lasts.

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Finally I have time to rant here. Well, I have to steal some time from other important things/responsibilities just to rant.

I hope it's not to late to join in the mainstream and wish those whom it may concern a wonderful and blessed Ramadhan 1433H.

I am indeed very and super grateful that I get to experience 4 days of this blissful month (so far) with mi familia. Not going to brag about that or anything, just being grateful and embracing every moment spent with them.

Last Friday, I managed to execute my plan of having a rendezvous with 3 of le partners-in-crime. It was indeed another thrilling and fun-filled adventure (at least on my part) with all the sudden changes of plans, detours, waiting for a certain someone in the rain (literally, the waiting part), driving in the rain, playing in the rain,  revisiting our alma mater, collecting our SPM and English GCSE-O certificates, meeting teachers (some of them), telling/ revealing truths of our current and future plans as students, more driving in the rain, detours as alternatives to avoid traffic congestions, (almost) serious conversation while sending someone back home and more.

It has been a month since I got home and I've been hanging out with my family and only them since most of le partners-in-crime are in school and all. Pardon me for digressing but I'm a troll. That didn't come out right.
I'm this troll.

And I got the genes from both of my parents.  So let's review.

See?

Don't believe me? Try asking my Whatsapp contacts to prove my statement.

Before I end this post,

Happy Birthday!

Cut the story short.

HAPPY 1ST BIRTHDAY/ANNIVERSARY CHICAGO FALL 2011!

To be frank,

but hey, I just want to convey this special message to those special people who came into my life and made it more meaningful. 17 weeks with you guys were the best days and moments I had. No words can describe my feelings about you awesome people.

If some of you might realize, our first class started on 13/07/2011 but it was CTIS10/CTES10. Therefore I deduced and declare that 14/07/2011 (when we got together as a family and attended USEL 03, USEL 15 and USMT 12) as our official 1st day of class during Fall 2011

Happy 19th birthday to Le Chicagoan! All the best at UIUC and for everything ahead.

I'll try my best to keep our class page alive. I'll come up with something. Hope you guys won't mind me spamming your notifications and all.

I'm sorry for ruining this moment by forgetting the things I want to type. Some things are best left unsaid.

In retrospect, Chicago Fall 2011: 1 year ago. We were so young! Well, not that young. You know what I mean. The first photo will be exactly 1 year old tomorrow!

P.s. Remember the video I premiered during our 2nd class rendezvous?
P.p.s Thank you for infecting me with the 9gag disease. I've been longing to say this  11 months ago but, yeah. There. I've said it.

19 and 1/4.

It may not be a big deal to everybody else, but I am grateful that I'm still breathing and living today and at this moment. May I be able to do so and get to experience Ramadan this year which will arrive approximately  11 days.

After 2 weeks only now I log in to Twitter. The reason? Refer to the title.

All The Best!

This post is specially for le 2 partners-in-crime who are catching a flight over the seas tomorrow.

All the best, you two. For Semester 3, IELTS and for everything ahead. I'm sorry that we couldn't meet up or at least I drop by your casa. I do hope INTEC won't be that tedious and mundane without my presence. Especially during Ramadan.

Thanks a million for willing to spend time with me during my days there.

I'm sorry I couldn't send you off at the airport tomorrow. Need to run some errands.

Update me with anything, just anything. I'm always there for you guys.

If there's any of our juniors at school, tell me! I've been searching for them. I manage to find only one but still unsure if that's the right person.

Don't procrastinate.

Hang in there. It won't be long till you come back for Raya holidays.

There's actually some reasons I wanted to meet up with both of you. Alas, we didn't have the opportunity. Forgive me for that. I hope you don't take it wrong or think that I didn't think highly of both of you about something. But, if God's willing, when the time comes, I will.

Don't worry about me. I can and will try my best to take care of myself.

I am and will always be there for you guys. And  for the others too.

You can count on me like 1, 2, 3 I'll be there (virtually) :)

Not to forget my INTEC friends, no matter in what programs you guys are in. All the best for everything, seniors! I know you like that (being called seniors). Be nice to le juniors. ADFPs or should I say ACT 6 (ACTPs), stay awesome, random and not to forget, maintain our noise level or be as noisy as you could! Let the whole INTEC be reminded or be informed about the awesome-ness of the ATU family.

Just Another Tuesday.

Everybody else will say today is just another Tuesday.

To some people, it's the day when they celebrate their birthday, no matter what their new age is.

To le partner-in-crime, Happy birthday! This post is for you buddy! The previous post, umm, well, it was meant for someone else :)

Enough with that. May you have a splendid and blessed journey now and hereafter. Thank you for coloring my life. Looking forward for any opportunities to meet up with you guys!

Greetings, July 2012.

Hello 7th month of 2012! Finally you're here! I am indeed excited with your advern because we are nearing Ramadan. I have to be patient and wait for the time to come if God's willing. While waiting, why not make full use of Sya'ban as well?

Today was wonderful. I'd love to take this opportunity to say a few words in conjunction with The Blogger's birthday. Unsure whether I am able to convey the message to the birthday person but hey, it's worth trying.

Here goes:

Hey Kiddo. Happy Awesome-tastic ™ 1*th birthday! All the best in everything you do and may you have a wonderful and blessed journey now and hereafter. How I wish I could upload a video of me playing the Birthday song here but due to technical problems, my wish didn't come true.

I despise myself for jeopardizing a birthday speech to-be by forgetting what I wanted to say. 
I'll just save that (the birthday speech) when I meet The Blogger in person someday. Maybe during a backstage meeting-with-the-fans-session or something like that in the future. I would definitely be one happy fan of yours, The Blogger.


Went out for a drive, just to pass the time and this song accompanied me all the way back.

It has been a while since I heard it on that certain radio station. Even though I have it in my iTunes but I prefer to listen to it during the radio broadcast. I guess it's the car's sound system which makes the song sounds more appealing than usual.

Some relatives dropped by le grandparents' casa.  Met my cousin who came all the way from the upper part of the state to register self at some medical training school at the sub-urb of the city. The best part was le cousin was 1 day younger than me.

To watch or not to watch: Euro 2012 Spain Vs. Italy

Am I That Bad?

Am I that bad? In other words, am I evil?

A so -called rhetorical question to myself. I just can't judge myself.

I know it's irrelevant to be all emo with trivial things as I could use that time to do other useful things. But then, I would love to straighten things out ,rather than just hiding behind the shadows, waiting for time to do its thing  (which I usually do all this while).

For now I'd like to focus more on tomorrow even though I can't run away from that certain matter forever.

Farewell June 2012.

And now, the end of June 2012 is near.
As usual, thank you, June 2012. For coming and leaving. This month was indeed another memorable one.

Anticipating the advern of tomorrow since it's going to be someone's big day. I'll see what I can come up with.

Excuses.

Feelings, emotions and matters of the heart are the least discussed or I should say, never been discussed in this blog. You may label me as a whiny baby, or just plain lame and pathetic by posting this post but I insist continuing this post and as usual, you know what to do if you think you might waste your time reading this pathetic post.

Forgive me if this post seems confounding and  cryptic.

Okay. I messed up big time.

I care too much for le partners-in-crime, which I think is a good think, all the time. But now, I am hurting myself.

Sometimes, nope. ALL the time I'm just plain obtuse, my actions and speech are subtle and I joke around, (add with a little sarcasm) with people just to eschew awkward moments.

I have zero idea the other day. What was I thinking? Was in the midst of an important and serious colloquy with a person who I'd say pleaded or in more proper terms, requested kindly for my to comply with the person's request. I was being this idiot, no; I'd say moron or a fool, as usual being casual and joking around in that virtual serious and important colloquy. Being insipid and ignorant, I hurt that person's feelings by being not serious with that discussion.

I'm just a kid, oblivious with people's feelings and all, now I know how it feels when that person did everything to eschew me, virtually. At least that's what I feel. Maybe I'm just over-reacting. People say that whatever the heart feels is always right. Unfortunately I never listened to it. Le heart, I'm sorry for doing so.
I'm just afraid that I misinterpret people's actions and feelings.

Man, this really hurts. When you're really into your friendship with a person, and being hurt with the other person's actions really reeks. I guess that's how the other person feels with my actions.

I never bother with these things before. Usually, when I do I'll just let it slip away. But this time, I figure you understand.

I'm this pathetic introvert since I can't predict and know what other people feel  and/or think.
Let's say I see a person sitting at the corner of the room. I will say that person needs their personal space, not being left out by the crowd.  That's why I never feel lonely at school gatherings because I try my best to fit in entertain myself and most of the time I don't attend those gatherings.

I need somebody to tell me all that using plain English or any other language that I could understand.

The best thing for now is I lay low in order not make things worst. Let time do its thing and pray that everything will turn out fine.

Now I feel this post doesn't makes sense at all. I don't make sense most of the time.

In general:
I'm sorry with all my doings that offended you, any one of you out there. I remembered a partner-in-crime mention to me that my jokes do hurt people's feelings. Unless you know me very well, you'll get use to it.

This incident made me think that I am never serious during conversations, there must be sarcastic jokes or comments relating someone's flaw in their speech. But then I am only like this around my closest friends. When I'm with new people I'll be the shadow, not a sound is heard from me unless when necessary. 

I'll try my best to be a better person and be more aware of people's feelings.

I'm just plain stupid.

An idiot.

An April Fool.

See what I mean?

Welcome Home!

I may be about a week late to welcome myself home but hey. I'm back. For good.

I've been spending quality time at home, with myself and le family for the past week and I'm enjoying that. It has been 3 months since I took the flight over the seas, back home.

Currently, my nose is sad and it keeps running and crying.

I am aware that I "owe" you, my readers a lot of tales about the ending of Summer Semester 2012 in INTEC. I proudly announce that I am already an alumni! I'll try my best to find time.

To be frank, I just unpack my luggage just to find le laptop's charger. That has prevented me to rant here on Blogger. I could've just find my keys to the locks of le luggage, go downstairs, unlock those luggage, search for the charger, go back to my lair, plug in the charger and voila! But I didn't. Whenever I think about doing so I go to the bookshelf, choose a book and read instead.

2 more days till we have newbies registering at INTEC UiTM! Brace yourselves, newbies.

Disappointment.

A peculiar incident happened to me just now. Even though I try to restrain myself to create this post since I am going to reveal people's weaknesses, as every religion teaches its people not to do so but my intention is so that others will not encounter the same thing as I did, for safety reasons.

I went hunting for a large box to put in my things. I was on the verge of giving up and might decide to throw those precious things if I failed to find the perfect box to put them. I saw this pile of boxes and a kitten behind some fast food outlet.Then I decided to go check it out.

Then I laid my eyes on that box, just the perfect size and I had second thoughts of taking it. I was worried in case it couldn't fit in le uncle's car later on. While I was busy talking to myself, I knew I was being watched.

The moment I kidnapped the box away, I heard some bloke yelling HALO! HALO! Luckily I had my earphones on, as usual and walk away.

After a few meters from the place I kidnapped the box, the bloke caught up with me with his motorbike. He reprimanded me for taking away HIS BOX from his area. He claimed that he was at the crime scene.

I was like:

Me: Kalau uncle nak ambik lah. (If you want your box so badly, here. Take it)

Bloke@Hobo: :Lu perlu kotak tu kah? (Do you really need that box?)

Me: Taklah jugak. Nak bawak barang balik kampung.Sorry lah unlce, saya tak tau ini uncle punya. (Not really. I just need it to bring my things home. I'm sorry, mister. I didn't know it was your box.)
(How on Earth should I know. He didn't write his name on it. Who asked him to leave it lying around? Why didn't he put the Police-line-do-not-cross-tape?

Bloke@Hobo: Lain kali  lu cakap dulu, tanya sama kotak sudah ambil ke belum. Next time, ask first whether I already possess that box or not.

(There's NO NEXT TIME! I'M GOING HOME FOR GOOD BLOKE!)

Me: Thank you uncle, sorry saya tak tahu tadi. Thank you mister. Sorry about that.

After that he went away I was like:

Pardon me for the bad English. I translated it directly.

After all that drama, I was disappointed in people like that hobo. Actually I don't think he's a hobo as he rode a motorbike but I still want to use that term.

Why would you reprimand a teenager, who somewhat steal an unused box in your territory? Why make that box an issue? I do not want to be like him, desperately searching for boxes and reprimanding people for stealing your income away.

I was grateful enough  that he didn't run into me with his motorbike.

I Will Find You.

Woke up super early since I couldn't sleep. Even though it was my fault but I still blame the mosquitoes for playing the song of its species and having a feast without my permission. It's hazing here in Shah Alam. Even le mom knows how bad it is since the whole thing was on the news.

I opened the window less than 1 cm, hoping I could provide some ventilation and reduce the heat but those creatures took the opportunity to misuse me.

Just so you'd get a clearer image of the whole situation,
Protagonist: Liam Neeson (Me)
Antagonist: Dog (Mosquitoes)

The moment I woke up and found out I was 'punctured' and had holes on my arms and worst, underneath my feet,

Only managed to kill 3/5 mosquitoes, those only one of them was bloated with fresh B+ type blood.

The other 2 mosquitoes, I repeat, "I DON'T KNOW WHO YOU ARE, BUT I WILL FIND YOU AND I WILL KILL YOU,"

Enough with the melodramatic incident.

So, after the waiting and killing part (mostly waiting), I opened my Calculus textbook. In the end I got bored and played Tetris Battle. I even had the chance to battle with le partner-in-crime.

The only thing I'd like to convey on this fine but hazy morning is I hope I could meet and spend time with Ramadan this year. I yearn so much for this year's rendezvous with that month full of blessings that I'm trying my best to be patient and contain that feeling. If God's willing, I will. 

I am right, right?

The second last week of Summer Semester has ended.

Having bad weather here in Shah Alam. It's hazing, the look and the smell of global warming.

Speaking of haze, I misinterpret the song in my previous post.

There was the first 3 lines at the beginning of the chorus:

I wanna be blown away
I wanna be swept off my feet
I wanna meet the one who makes it hard for me to breathe

My interpretation: The I refers to DUST.

Most of you will give these reactions.

But I am partially right.

People blow dust away, sweep dust and dust makes people hard to breathe.


No offense, Megan Nicole! I still look up to your music skills.

B-e-a-utiful.

I've tried to understand this, after a few times listening to this I still can't. I was mesmerized with the Spanish guitar accompaniment; which is super audible during the chorus after the bridge.

I understand this version better.

I might put this on my song collaboration list.

Bubbles.

No matter what age you are, you can never say no to bubbles, even you restrain yourselves from popping them. I know, deep down inside you want so badly to pop them too.

Megan Nicole made me want to play with bubbles. See?

I didn't even bother to understand the song. Was too occupied with the bubbles and her guitar.

INTEC UiTM: Seksyen 17 Campus.

Full credits to INTEC Sky page. I'm just conveying the info.

Even though you will be going on a tour around the campus during your orientation week, best known as Minggu Destini Siswa (MDS), might as well you enjoy this photos, who knows you'll be able to get to know the places around the campus even better.

I didn't know this place exists

Block U: The most diverse block ever

Block W: ALM block

INTEC UiTM: Overview

Firstly, I'd like to congratulate each and everyone of you for reaching this stage and being accepted to INTEC UiTM to continue pursuing you dreams.

Institution: INTEC UiTM Section 17 Campus 40200 Shah Alam Selangor Darul Ehsan

Preparatory Programs offered:
Long Term Programs:
American Degree Foundation Program (ADFP) (wooooo!) ( 1 year)
American Credit Transfer Program (ACTP) (2 years)
A-Level: Medicine (ALM) (2 years)
A-Level United Kingdom (ALUK) (2 years)
A-Level German (ALG) (2.5 years)
Australian Matriculation (AUSMAT) (1.5 years)
Russian Program (1 year)
Japanese Program (Kumpulan Teknikal Jepun) (2 years)

Short Programs (Less than 6 months)
Middle East Program (MEP)
Korean Program

Courses:
ADFP: Actuarial Science, Business, Economics, Logistics, Engineering, Bio technology, 
            As for July 2011 intake: Graphic Design and Animation
ACTP: Engineering, Pure Sciences (As for July 2011 intake): Physics, Biology, Chemistry

ALM: Medicine (of course) As for July 2011 intake: Pharmacy (Nottingham) 

ALUK: Economics, Architecture, As for July 2011 intake: Ministry of Education scholars
                          
ALG: Engineering

AUSMAT: Engineering, Pharmacy, Accounting, Economics,

Russian Program: Medicine

Japanese Program: Engineering

MEP: Medicine

Korean Program: Engineering, Animation


Don't get confused when I mentioned the courses. INTEC only provide foundation studies and cthe courses are what the students  opted for when they pursue their tertiary studies overseas.

ADFP are for those who fly to the States after their first year in INTEC, most are MARA scholars and others are of private students and JPA scholars

ACTP those flying to the States after 2 years in INTEC, their credit hours and scores are transferred to universities in the US. JPA, PETRONAS, private students and as for july 2011 intake: Yayasan Terengganu scholars

ALM: bounded with one of those medical colleges/ institution: Melaka-Manipal Medical College (MMMC), Penang Medical College (PMC), International Medical College (IMU) and Nottingham for future pharmacists.

Once you are in a certain program, you are automatically a member of that special group.

ADFPs and ACTPs: American Top Universities Students' Association (ATUSA)

AUSMAT: South Australian Matriculation Students' Association (SAMSA) (parody much?)

ALM: A-Level Medicine Council (ALMEC)

ALG: Der Klub

Russian Program: Russian Students' Association (RUSSA)

Warmest Welcome to INTEC UiTM, Shah Alam.

Since I received a lot of requests from my readers that I should share more stories or anything similar like that about INTEC. Without further ado, welcome, to all future INTEC students.

Hello there. I'm your guide for this and the upcoming posts regarding INTEC UiTM. I'm currently pursuing American Degree Foundation Program in Engineering and I'll be completing my Summer Semester in  2 week's time. Most probably won't be able to meet those students of July 2012 intake. Never fear, you get to meet me here. Virtually.

Without further ado, brace yourselves for more info on your future alma mater,

A Gift to Humanity.

 This. I should've.

Don't judge just yet. You haven't read my story. This post may be soporific. Just bear with me, if you refuse to do so, you know what to do.

 Despite feeling unwell, I still turn up for today's event and I am very grateful indeed for doing so. Even though the event wasn't approve by the college administration board, we, this group of noble youth decided to go on with the program.

We made a special visit to a school for children of special backgrounds. The program started yesterday but I couldn't participate since I had to sit for Calculus 1 test 2.

The journey started at about 9 am and we arrived at Sentul Boulevard 45 minutes later. Thankfully the traffic was smooth all the way. Before meeting the kids, we had a briefing and practiced the movements and the chorus of You Raise Me Up and  Heads, Shoulders, Knees and Toes with the accompaniment of 2 acoustic guitars played by 2 seniors.

After practicing, we saw some kids coming down the stairs, who were ecstatic to see us. We gathered our things and went upstairs.While going up the stairs I felt anxious and a little daunted as I was about to have fun with kids. It's not that I'm not good with them but the fact that it's been a while since I played with kids for quite sometime and I was worried that I was unable to relate to them. To be frank, my childhood is way epic than those of kids these days, even though iPads, Angry Birds, The Avengers haven't existed at that time. The moment I entered classroom, I smiled when I saw boys and girls in school uniforms most probably lower primary school kids with the looks of anticipation to meet us.

A senior reintroduced yesterday's volunteers and introduced today's team to the kids. That warm, fuzzy feeling you get when you introduce yourself in front of an audience, and they greet you back. After breaking the ice, we started with a simple game, Tied In Knots, where you are in groups of 4 or more, cross your arms on front of you and grab the other person's hand and try to form a circle. Then we sang Head, Shoulders, Knees and Toes with movements and also You Raise Me Up chorus twice.

Subsequently, each volunteer was assign to at least 2 kids for the 1 hour reading session. I enjoyed reading WITH 2 adorable girls, probably aged 7-8. Even though it seems too mainstream to read fairy tales especially Cinderella, Snow White and Rapunzel whenever there's any reading program or session with children, I had fun reading with them even though the ending to the 3 stories are similar where the heroin falls in love and get married with prince charming. The girls most probably from a neighboring country as they talked to each other in between the stories in some foreign language and I can only smile while listening to them.

When the 1 hour period ended, we started with the arts and craft session by making a simple key chain. I helped out the 2 girls by handling the scissors whilst they draw on the colored foam (unsure what that material was). The other senior conducted that session and showed us some examples: a flower, the red angry bird and a smiley face. I was awed with their creativity as they drew hearts,sunflowers and an angel. I was indeed very touched with that. "She must've gone through a lot," I said to myself.

We shared the scissors and double sided tape with another group which was really time consuming to wait for our turn to use those instruments. The volunteers were also given the same material to create our own key chains.

Since I ran out of time and materials because I was helping out the whole time and I gave my materials to those 2 girls, my key chain was the one I showed you in the photo above. Whilst the other kids completed their masterpiece and helping each other to clean up, I was still doing the final touches for the girl who drew the angel. I didn't want to miss a chance so I grabbed the pink material and orange marker, drew Elmo's face and cut it out. The angel girl asked me where should she paste the Elmo since she already completed her key chain. I paused for a moment and solemnly I told her that Elmo was mine.

I should've. I should've given her my Elmo and pasted it behind her beautiful angel-surrounded-by-hearts -and -roses key chain. I really feel bad for not doing so. Why on earth was I so selfish to the child who loved my drawing of roses for her, which do not appear like roses and also the child who went through life more than I did at such a young age?

I don't deserve to be called a human for doing so. I feel bad for unable to pronounce her name correctly even though she had her name tag on. During the reading session, I only called her "Girl" and "Dear" and I was too ignorant to read and remember her name even though she wrote it on her key chain.

I do hope I am able to be remembered and forgiven for my wrong doings and as compensation, the key chain that I helped her to make. In return, I will treasure the Elmo key chain and not write my name on it as I dedicate this key chain to her and I'd like to say, " Angel girl, Elmo is for you and me. "

I didn't want to leave the center too soon, but alas, we left with a heavy heart. Even though we only spent 3 memorable hours but we grew closer. I am very thankful to the seniors who took the effort to create this kind of event as it got me thinking.

I am and should be even more grateful with everything I have, even though I've hit rock bottom and  fell down for a number of times, having scars and bruises and still trying to walk properly, hoping that I could run again, like I used to. I'll try to have the determination and high spirit as those kids have in going through their lives at such age. In retrospect, at their age, I was living a normal and comfortable life, no worries as I was only a child yet they are trying their best to continue living and hoping to grow up and live better lives despite all the scars and bruises, which are worst than mine which they had when they were younger.

On the way back to Shah Alam, I gazed out the bus window and while listening to piano instrumentals on my playlist, something struck me, like lightning. I can't recall at some age, I wanted  to pursue a career in the medical field and when I am older and have enough funds to live a comfortable but normal life, I would love to be a volunteer in any non-profit organizations, just to give back to the community. With today's experience, I will try my best to realize that dream, hoping that I could present a gift to humanity and may all you people out there have the opportunity to experience something similar like I did so that you could increase your awareness with these issues.This is indeed an eye-opening experience and I wanted so badly to go for next week's session but then I decided to give a chance to the other volunteers hoping that they'll experience the same thing as I did.

I won't be revealing what those kids have gone through and I do hope you respect my decisions.

No matter this program was unapproved by our college administration, it was worth it. I am willing to go through anything if I get into trouble with the administrative board for participating this event.