Boxing Day.

Today's rendezvous was beyond spectacular. It made me reevaluate (almost) everything that revolves around me.

I am aware that the previous statement seems cliche but I'm sure you wouldn't believe me when I admit that it is true. The warm and fuzzy feeling that you get when (almost) everyone that you care about are all gathered together.

If only I could pause the time from moving on and just observe everything around me at my own pace, that would really make me understand how everything relates to one and another and a simple (sometimes crucial) decision can make a difference. If only I could be mature enough to do that.

Another attempt to express my feelings and be true to myself, failed. What's wrong with me?

I guess I am trying my best to accept the fact that everyone has and is moving forward. I am still stuck in the past and present. I chose this path and I am and have to deal with it. Not saying that I'm ruing any part of this path and life. Sometimes I wonder, what would've happened if I explored and continued on with the path that I had taken before? How would that affect everything that revolves around me? How would everyone be affected and when?

Whew, I didn't know that this post would be so bitterly emotional and rhetorical

I apologize for being ungrateful and ruining the blessed and wonderful day. Not only that, I learned that I should be more careful with my actions: me spreading the happiness, whilst someone else is dreading with some problems or feeling doleful when someone they love very much leaves for good and the former did not get to say goodbye.

I am deeply sorry.

Enough with the emo ramblings.

I miss my co-pilot. I miss the fact that we usually really spend time together during car rides, despite the fact that some of our conversations during the rides are inappropriate to be discussed when a person is driving. That makes the rides very meaningful, at least in my perspective.

Why do I feel that this post makes zero sense? I need to clear my mind, pronto!