Am I that bad? In other words, am I evil?
A so -called rhetorical question to myself. I just can't judge myself.
I know it's irrelevant to be all emo with trivial things as I could use that time to do other useful things. But then, I would love to straighten things out ,rather than just hiding behind the shadows, waiting for time to do its thing (which I usually do all this while).
For now I'd like to focus more on tomorrow even though I can't run away from that certain matter forever.
Saturday, June 30, 2012
Farewell June 2012.
And now, the end of June 2012 is near.
As usual, thank you, June 2012. For coming and leaving. This month was indeed another memorable one.
Anticipating the advern of tomorrow since it's going to be someone's big day. I'll see what I can come up with.
As usual, thank you, June 2012. For coming and leaving. This month was indeed another memorable one.
Anticipating the advern of tomorrow since it's going to be someone's big day. I'll see what I can come up with.
Excuses.
Feelings, emotions and matters of the heart are the least discussed or I should say, never been discussed in this blog. You may label me as a whiny baby, or just plain lame and pathetic by posting this post but I insist continuing this post and as usual, you know what to do if you think you might waste your time reading this pathetic post.
Forgive me if this post seems confounding and cryptic.
Okay. I messed up big time.
I care too much for le partners-in-crime, which I think is a good think, all the time. But now, I am hurting myself.
Sometimes, nope. ALL the time I'm just plain obtuse, my actions and speech are subtle and I joke around, (add with a little sarcasm) with people just to eschew awkward moments.
I have zero idea the other day. What was I thinking? Was in the midst of an important and serious colloquy with a person who I'd say pleaded or in more proper terms, requested kindly for my to comply with the person's request. I was being this idiot, no; I'd say moron or a fool, as usual being casual and joking around in that virtual serious and important colloquy. Being insipid and ignorant, I hurt that person's feelings by being not serious with that discussion.
I'm just a kid, oblivious with people's feelings and all, now I know how it feels when that person did everything to eschew me, virtually. At least that's what I feel. Maybe I'm just over-reacting. People say that whatever the heart feels is always right. Unfortunately I never listened to it. Le heart, I'm sorry for doing so.
I'm just afraid that I misinterpret people's actions and feelings.
Man, this really hurts. When you're really into your friendship with a person, and being hurt with the other person's actions really reeks. I guess that's how the other person feels with my actions.
I never bother with these things before. Usually, when I do I'll just let it slip away. But this time, I figure you understand.
I'm this pathetic introvert since I can't predict and know what other people feel and/or think.
Let's say I see a person sitting at the corner of the room. I will say that person needs their personal space, not being left out by the crowd. That's why I never feel lonely at school gatherings because I try my best to fit in entertain myself and most of the time I don't attend those gatherings.
I need somebody to tell me all that using plain English or any other language that I could understand.
The best thing for now is I lay low in order not make things worst. Let time do its thing and pray that everything will turn out fine.
Now I feel this post doesn't makes sense at all. I don't make sense most of the time.
In general:
I'm sorry with all my doings that offended you, any one of you out there. I remembered a partner-in-crime mention to me that my jokes do hurt people's feelings. Unless you know me very well, you'll get use to it.
This incident made me think that I am never serious during conversations, there must be sarcastic jokes or comments relating someone's flaw in their speech. But then I am only like this around my closest friends. When I'm with new people I'll be the shadow, not a sound is heard from me unless when necessary.
I'll try my best to be a better person and be more aware of people's feelings.
I'm just plain stupid.
An idiot.
An April Fool.
See what I mean?
Forgive me if this post seems confounding and cryptic.
Okay. I messed up big time.
I care too much for le partners-in-crime, which I think is a good think, all the time. But now, I am hurting myself.
Sometimes, nope. ALL the time I'm just plain obtuse, my actions and speech are subtle and I joke around, (add with a little sarcasm) with people just to eschew awkward moments.
I have zero idea the other day. What was I thinking? Was in the midst of an important and serious colloquy with a person who I'd say pleaded or in more proper terms, requested kindly for my to comply with the person's request. I was being this idiot, no; I'd say moron or a fool, as usual being casual and joking around in that virtual serious and important colloquy. Being insipid and ignorant, I hurt that person's feelings by being not serious with that discussion.
I'm just a kid, oblivious with people's feelings and all, now I know how it feels when that person did everything to eschew me, virtually. At least that's what I feel. Maybe I'm just over-reacting. People say that whatever the heart feels is always right. Unfortunately I never listened to it. Le heart, I'm sorry for doing so.
I'm just afraid that I misinterpret people's actions and feelings.
Man, this really hurts. When you're really into your friendship with a person, and being hurt with the other person's actions really reeks. I guess that's how the other person feels with my actions.
I never bother with these things before. Usually, when I do I'll just let it slip away. But this time, I figure you understand.
I'm this pathetic introvert since I can't predict and know what other people feel and/or think.
Let's say I see a person sitting at the corner of the room. I will say that person needs their personal space, not being left out by the crowd. That's why I never feel lonely at school gatherings because I try my best to fit in entertain myself and most of the time I don't attend those gatherings.
I need somebody to tell me all that using plain English or any other language that I could understand.
The best thing for now is I lay low in order not make things worst. Let time do its thing and pray that everything will turn out fine.
Now I feel this post doesn't makes sense at all. I don't make sense most of the time.
In general:
I'm sorry with all my doings that offended you, any one of you out there. I remembered a partner-in-crime mention to me that my jokes do hurt people's feelings. Unless you know me very well, you'll get use to it.
This incident made me think that I am never serious during conversations, there must be sarcastic jokes or comments relating someone's flaw in their speech. But then I am only like this around my closest friends. When I'm with new people I'll be the shadow, not a sound is heard from me unless when necessary.
I'll try my best to be a better person and be more aware of people's feelings.
I'm just plain stupid.
An idiot.
An April Fool.
See what I mean?
Friday, June 29, 2012
Welcome Home!
I may be about a week late to welcome myself home but hey. I'm back. For good.
I've been spending quality time at home, with myself and le family for the past week and I'm enjoying that. It has been 3 months since I took the flight over the seas, back home.
Currently, my nose is sad and it keeps running and crying.
I am aware that I "owe" you, my readers a lot of tales about the ending of Summer Semester 2012 in INTEC. I proudly announce that I am already an alumni! I'll try my best to find time.
To be frank, I just unpack my luggage just to find le laptop's charger. That has prevented me to rant here on Blogger. I could've just find my keys to the locks of le luggage, go downstairs, unlock those luggage, search for the charger, go back to my lair, plug in the charger and voila! But I didn't. Whenever I think about doing so I go to the bookshelf, choose a book and read instead.
2 more days till we have newbies registering at INTEC UiTM! Brace yourselves, newbies.
I've been spending quality time at home, with myself and le family for the past week and I'm enjoying that. It has been 3 months since I took the flight over the seas, back home.
Currently, my nose is sad and it keeps running and crying.
I am aware that I "owe" you, my readers a lot of tales about the ending of Summer Semester 2012 in INTEC. I proudly announce that I am already an alumni! I'll try my best to find time.
To be frank, I just unpack my luggage just to find le laptop's charger. That has prevented me to rant here on Blogger. I could've just find my keys to the locks of le luggage, go downstairs, unlock those luggage, search for the charger, go back to my lair, plug in the charger and voila! But I didn't. Whenever I think about doing so I go to the bookshelf, choose a book and read instead.
2 more days till we have newbies registering at INTEC UiTM! Brace yourselves, newbies.
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Disappointment.
A peculiar incident happened to me just now. Even though I try to restrain myself to create this post since I am going to reveal people's weaknesses, as every religion teaches its people not to do so but my intention is so that others will not encounter the same thing as I did, for safety reasons.
I went hunting for a large box to put in my things. I was on the verge of giving up and might decide to throw those precious things if I failed to find the perfect box to put them. I saw this pile of boxes and a kitten behind some fast food outlet.Then I decided to go check it out.
Then I laid my eyes on that box, just the perfect size and I had second thoughts of taking it. I was worried in case it couldn't fit in le uncle's car later on. While I was busy talking to myself, I knew I was being watched.
The moment I kidnapped the box away, I heard some bloke yelling HALO! HALO! Luckily I had my earphones on, as usual and walk away.
After a few meters from the place I kidnapped the box, the bloke caught up with me with his motorbike. He reprimanded me for taking away HIS BOX from his area. He claimed that he was at the crime scene.
I was like:
Me: Kalau uncle nak ambik lah. (If you want your box so badly, here. Take it)
Bloke@Hobo: :Lu perlu kotak tu kah? (Do you really need that box?)
Me: Taklah jugak. Nak bawak barang balik kampung.Sorry lah unlce, saya tak tau ini uncle punya. (Not really. I just need it to bring my things home. I'm sorry, mister. I didn't know it was your box.)
(How on Earth should I know. He didn't write his name on it. Who asked him to leave it lying around? Why didn't he put the Police-line-do-not-cross-tape?
Bloke@Hobo: Lain kali lu cakap dulu, tanya sama kotak sudah ambil ke belum. Next time, ask first whether I already possess that box or not.
(There's NO NEXT TIME! I'M GOING HOME FOR GOOD BLOKE!)
Me: Thank you uncle, sorry saya tak tahu tadi. Thank you mister. Sorry about that.
After that he went away I was like:
Pardon me for the bad English. I translated it directly.
After all that drama, I was disappointed in people like that hobo. Actually I don't think he's a hobo as he rode a motorbike but I still want to use that term.
Why would you reprimand a teenager, who somewhat steal an unused box in your territory? Why make that box an issue? I do not want to be like him, desperately searching for boxes and reprimanding people for stealing your income away.
I was grateful enough that he didn't run into me with his motorbike.
I went hunting for a large box to put in my things. I was on the verge of giving up and might decide to throw those precious things if I failed to find the perfect box to put them. I saw this pile of boxes and a kitten behind some fast food outlet.Then I decided to go check it out.
Then I laid my eyes on that box, just the perfect size and I had second thoughts of taking it. I was worried in case it couldn't fit in le uncle's car later on. While I was busy talking to myself, I knew I was being watched.
The moment I kidnapped the box away, I heard some bloke yelling HALO! HALO! Luckily I had my earphones on, as usual and walk away.
After a few meters from the place I kidnapped the box, the bloke caught up with me with his motorbike. He reprimanded me for taking away HIS BOX from his area. He claimed that he was at the crime scene.
I was like:
Me: Kalau uncle nak ambik lah. (If you want your box so badly, here. Take it)
Bloke@Hobo: :Lu perlu kotak tu kah? (Do you really need that box?)
Me: Taklah jugak. Nak bawak barang balik kampung.Sorry lah unlce, saya tak tau ini uncle punya. (Not really. I just need it to bring my things home. I'm sorry, mister. I didn't know it was your box.)
(How on Earth should I know. He didn't write his name on it. Who asked him to leave it lying around? Why didn't he put the Police-line-do-not-cross-tape?
Bloke@Hobo: Lain kali lu cakap dulu, tanya sama kotak sudah ambil ke belum. Next time, ask first whether I already possess that box or not.
(There's NO NEXT TIME! I'M GOING HOME FOR GOOD BLOKE!)
Me: Thank you uncle, sorry saya tak tahu tadi. Thank you mister. Sorry about that.
After that he went away I was like:
Pardon me for the bad English. I translated it directly.
After all that drama, I was disappointed in people like that hobo. Actually I don't think he's a hobo as he rode a motorbike but I still want to use that term.
Why would you reprimand a teenager, who somewhat steal an unused box in your territory? Why make that box an issue? I do not want to be like him, desperately searching for boxes and reprimanding people for stealing your income away.
I was grateful enough that he didn't run into me with his motorbike.
Sunday, June 17, 2012
I Will Find You.
Woke up super early since I couldn't sleep. Even though it was my fault but I still blame the mosquitoes for playing the song of its species and having a feast without my permission. It's hazing here in Shah Alam. Even le mom knows how bad it is since the whole thing was on the news.
I opened the window less than 1 cm, hoping I could provide some ventilation and reduce the heat but those creatures took the opportunity to misuse me.
Just so you'd get a clearer image of the whole situation,
Protagonist: Liam Neeson (Me)
Antagonist: Dog (Mosquitoes)
The moment I woke up and found out I was 'punctured' and had holes on my arms and worst, underneath my feet,
Only managed to kill 3/5 mosquitoes, those only one of them was bloated with fresh B+ type blood.
The other 2 mosquitoes, I repeat, "I DON'T KNOW WHO YOU ARE, BUT I WILL FIND YOU AND I WILL KILL YOU,"
Enough with the melodramatic incident.
So, after the waiting and killing part (mostly waiting), I opened my Calculus textbook. In the end I got bored and played Tetris Battle. I even had the chance to battle with le partner-in-crime.
The only thing I'd like to convey on this fine but hazy morning is I hope I could meet and spend time with Ramadan this year. I yearn so much for this year's rendezvous with that month full of blessings that I'm trying my best to be patient and contain that feeling. If God's willing, I will.
I opened the window less than 1 cm, hoping I could provide some ventilation and reduce the heat but those creatures took the opportunity to misuse me.
Just so you'd get a clearer image of the whole situation,
Protagonist: Liam Neeson (Me)
Antagonist: Dog (Mosquitoes)
The moment I woke up and found out I was 'punctured' and had holes on my arms and worst, underneath my feet,
The other 2 mosquitoes, I repeat, "I DON'T KNOW WHO YOU ARE, BUT I WILL FIND YOU AND I WILL KILL YOU,"
Enough with the melodramatic incident.
So, after the waiting and killing part (mostly waiting), I opened my Calculus textbook. In the end I got bored and played Tetris Battle. I even had the chance to battle with le partner-in-crime.
The only thing I'd like to convey on this fine but hazy morning is I hope I could meet and spend time with Ramadan this year. I yearn so much for this year's rendezvous with that month full of blessings that I'm trying my best to be patient and contain that feeling. If God's willing, I will.
Friday, June 15, 2012
I am right, right?
The second last week of Summer Semester has ended.
Having bad weather here in Shah Alam. It's hazing, the look and the smell of global warming.
Speaking of haze, I misinterpret the song in my previous post.
There was the first 3 lines at the beginning of the chorus:
I wanna be blown away
I wanna be swept off my feet
I wanna meet the one who makes it hard for me to breathe
My interpretation: The I refers to DUST.
Most of you will give these reactions.
But I am partially right.
People blow dust away, sweep dust and dust makes people hard to breathe.
No offense, Megan Nicole! I still look up to your music skills.
Having bad weather here in Shah Alam. It's hazing, the look and the smell of global warming.
Speaking of haze, I misinterpret the song in my previous post.
There was the first 3 lines at the beginning of the chorus:
I wanna be blown away
I wanna be swept off my feet
I wanna meet the one who makes it hard for me to breathe
My interpretation: The I refers to DUST.
But I am partially right.
People blow dust away, sweep dust and dust makes people hard to breathe.
No offense, Megan Nicole! I still look up to your music skills.
Monday, June 11, 2012
B-e-a-utiful.
I've tried to understand this, after a few times listening to this I still can't. I was mesmerized with the Spanish guitar accompaniment; which is super audible during the chorus after the bridge.
I understand this version better.
I might put this on my song collaboration list.
I understand this version better.
I might put this on my song collaboration list.
Sunday, June 10, 2012
Bubbles.
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I didn't even bother to understand the song. Was too occupied with the bubbles and her guitar.
INTEC UiTM: Seksyen 17 Campus.
Full credits to INTEC Sky page. I'm just conveying the info.
Even though you will be going on a tour around the campus during your orientation week, best known as Minggu Destini Siswa (MDS), might as well you enjoy this photos, who knows you'll be able to get to know the places around the campus even better.
Even though you will be going on a tour around the campus during your orientation week, best known as Minggu Destini Siswa (MDS), might as well you enjoy this photos, who knows you'll be able to get to know the places around the campus even better.
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| I didn't know this place exists |
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| Block U: The most diverse block ever |
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| Block W: ALM block |
INTEC UiTM: Overview
Firstly, I'd like to congratulate each and everyone of you for reaching this stage and being accepted to INTEC UiTM to continue pursuing you dreams.
Institution: INTEC UiTM Section 17 Campus 40200 Shah Alam Selangor Darul Ehsan
Preparatory Programs offered:
Long Term Programs:
American Degree Foundation Program (ADFP) (wooooo!) ( 1 year)
American Credit Transfer Program (ACTP) (2 years)
A-Level: Medicine (ALM) (2 years)
A-Level United Kingdom (ALUK) (2 years)
A-Level German (ALG) (2.5 years)
Australian Matriculation (AUSMAT) (1.5 years)
Russian Program (1 year)
Japanese Program (Kumpulan Teknikal Jepun) (2 years)
Short Programs (Less than 6 months)
Middle East Program (MEP)
Korean Program
Courses:
ADFP: Actuarial Science, Business, Economics, Logistics, Engineering, Bio technology,
As for July 2011 intake: Graphic Design and Animation
ACTP: Engineering, Pure Sciences (As for July 2011 intake): Physics, Biology, Chemistry
ALM: Medicine (of course) As for July 2011 intake: Pharmacy (Nottingham)
ALUK: Economics, Architecture, As for July 2011 intake: Ministry of Education scholars
ALG: Engineering
AUSMAT: Engineering, Pharmacy, Accounting, Economics,
Russian Program: Medicine
Japanese Program: Engineering
MEP: Medicine
Korean Program: Engineering, Animation
Don't get confused when I mentioned the courses. INTEC only provide foundation studies and cthe courses are what the students opted for when they pursue their tertiary studies overseas.
ADFP are for those who fly to the States after their first year in INTEC, most are MARA scholars and others are of private students and JPA scholars
ACTP those flying to the States after 2 years in INTEC, their credit hours and scores are transferred to universities in the US. JPA, PETRONAS, private students and as for july 2011 intake: Yayasan Terengganu scholars
ALM: bounded with one of those medical colleges/ institution: Melaka-Manipal Medical College (MMMC), Penang Medical College (PMC), International Medical College (IMU) and Nottingham for future pharmacists.
Once you are in a certain program, you are automatically a member of that special group.
ADFPs and ACTPs: American Top Universities Students' Association (ATUSA)
AUSMAT: South Australian Matriculation Students' Association (SAMSA)(parody much?)
ALM: A-Level Medicine Council (ALMEC)
ALG: Der Klub
Russian Program: Russian Students' Association (RUSSA)
Institution: INTEC UiTM Section 17 Campus 40200 Shah Alam Selangor Darul Ehsan
Preparatory Programs offered:
Long Term Programs:
American Degree Foundation Program (ADFP) (wooooo!) ( 1 year)
American Credit Transfer Program (ACTP) (2 years)
A-Level: Medicine (ALM) (2 years)
A-Level United Kingdom (ALUK) (2 years)
A-Level German (ALG) (2.5 years)
Australian Matriculation (AUSMAT) (1.5 years)
Russian Program (1 year)
Japanese Program (Kumpulan Teknikal Jepun) (2 years)
Short Programs (Less than 6 months)
Middle East Program (MEP)
Korean Program
Courses:
ADFP: Actuarial Science, Business, Economics, Logistics, Engineering, Bio technology,
As for July 2011 intake: Graphic Design and Animation
ACTP: Engineering, Pure Sciences (As for July 2011 intake): Physics, Biology, Chemistry
ALM: Medicine (of course) As for July 2011 intake: Pharmacy (Nottingham)
ALUK: Economics, Architecture, As for July 2011 intake: Ministry of Education scholars
ALG: Engineering
AUSMAT: Engineering, Pharmacy, Accounting, Economics,
Russian Program: Medicine
Japanese Program: Engineering
MEP: Medicine
Korean Program: Engineering, Animation
Don't get confused when I mentioned the courses. INTEC only provide foundation studies and cthe courses are what the students opted for when they pursue their tertiary studies overseas.
ADFP are for those who fly to the States after their first year in INTEC, most are MARA scholars and others are of private students and JPA scholars
ACTP those flying to the States after 2 years in INTEC, their credit hours and scores are transferred to universities in the US. JPA, PETRONAS, private students and as for july 2011 intake: Yayasan Terengganu scholars
ALM: bounded with one of those medical colleges/ institution: Melaka-Manipal Medical College (MMMC), Penang Medical College (PMC), International Medical College (IMU) and Nottingham for future pharmacists.
Once you are in a certain program, you are automatically a member of that special group.
ADFPs and ACTPs: American Top Universities Students' Association (ATUSA)
AUSMAT: South Australian Matriculation Students' Association (SAMSA)
ALM: A-Level Medicine Council (ALMEC)
ALG: Der Klub
Russian Program: Russian Students' Association (RUSSA)
Warmest Welcome to INTEC UiTM, Shah Alam.
Since I received a lot of requests from my readers that I should share more stories or anything similar like that about INTEC. Without further ado, welcome, to all future INTEC students.
Hello there. I'm your guide for this and the upcoming posts regarding INTEC UiTM. I'm currently pursuing American Degree Foundation Program in Engineering and I'll be completing my Summer Semester in 2 week's time. Most probably won't be able to meet those students of July 2012 intake. Never fear, you get to meet me here. Virtually.
Without further ado, brace yourselves for more info on your future alma mater,
Hello there. I'm your guide for this and the upcoming posts regarding INTEC UiTM. I'm currently pursuing American Degree Foundation Program in Engineering and I'll be completing my Summer Semester in 2 week's time. Most probably won't be able to meet those students of July 2012 intake. Never fear, you get to meet me here. Virtually.
Without further ado, brace yourselves for more info on your future alma mater,
Saturday, June 09, 2012
A Gift to Humanity.
This. I should've.
Don't judge just yet. You haven't read my story. This post may be soporific. Just bear with me, if you refuse to do so, you know what to do.
Despite feeling unwell, I still turn up for today's event and I am very grateful indeed for doing so. Even though the event wasn't approve by the college administration board, we, this group of noble youth decided to go on with the program.
We made a special visit to a school for children of special backgrounds. The program started yesterday but I couldn't participate since I had to sit for Calculus 1 test 2.
The journey started at about 9 am and we arrived at Sentul Boulevard 45 minutes later. Thankfully the traffic was smooth all the way. Before meeting the kids, we had a briefing and practiced the movements and the chorus of You Raise Me Up and Heads, Shoulders, Knees and Toes with the accompaniment of 2 acoustic guitars played by 2 seniors.
After practicing, we saw some kids coming down the stairs, who were ecstatic to see us. We gathered our things and went upstairs.While going up the stairs I felt anxious and a little daunted as I was about to have fun with kids. It's not that I'm not good with them but the fact that it's been a while since I played with kids for quite sometime and I was worried that I was unable to relate to them. To be frank, my childhood is way epic than those of kids these days, even though iPads, Angry Birds, The Avengers haven't existed at that time. The moment I entered classroom, I smiled when I saw boys and girls in school uniforms most probably lower primary school kids with the looks of anticipation to meet us.
A senior reintroduced yesterday's volunteers and introduced today's team to the kids. That warm, fuzzy feeling you get when you introduce yourself in front of an audience, and they greet you back. After breaking the ice, we started with a simple game, Tied In Knots, where you are in groups of 4 or more, cross your arms on front of you and grab the other person's hand and try to form a circle. Then we sang Head, Shoulders, Knees and Toes with movements and also You Raise Me Up chorus twice.
Subsequently, each volunteer was assign to at least 2 kids for the 1 hour reading session. I enjoyed reading WITH 2 adorable girls, probably aged 7-8. Even though it seems too mainstream to read fairy tales especially Cinderella, Snow White and Rapunzel whenever there's any reading program or session with children, I had fun reading with them even though the ending to the 3 stories are similar where the heroin falls in love and get married with prince charming. The girls most probably from a neighboring country as they talked to each other in between the stories in some foreign language and I can only smile while listening to them.
When the 1 hour period ended, we started with the arts and craft session by making a simple key chain. I helped out the 2 girls by handling the scissors whilst they draw on the colored foam (unsure what that material was). The other senior conducted that session and showed us some examples: a flower, the red angry bird and a smiley face. I was awed with their creativity as they drew hearts,sunflowers and an angel. I was indeed very touched with that. "She must've gone through a lot," I said to myself.
We shared the scissors and double sided tape with another group which was really time consuming to wait for our turn to use those instruments. The volunteers were also given the same material to create our own key chains.
Since I ran out of time and materials because I was helping out the whole time and I gave my materials to those 2 girls, my key chain was the one I showed you in the photo above. Whilst the other kids completed their masterpiece and helping each other to clean up, I was still doing the final touches for the girl who drew the angel. I didn't want to miss a chance so I grabbed the pink material and orange marker, drew Elmo's face and cut it out. The angel girl asked me where should she paste the Elmo since she already completed her key chain. I paused for a moment and solemnly I told her that Elmo was mine.
I should've. I should've given her my Elmo and pasted it behind her beautiful angel-surrounded-by-hearts -and -roses key chain. I really feel bad for not doing so. Why on earth was I so selfish to the child who loved my drawing of roses for her, which do not appear like roses and also the child who went through life more than I did at such a young age?
I don't deserve to be called a human for doing so. I feel bad for unable to pronounce her name correctly even though she had her name tag on. During the reading session, I only called her "Girl" and "Dear" and I was too ignorant to read and remember her name even though she wrote it on her key chain.
I do hope I am able to be remembered and forgiven for my wrong doings and as compensation, the key chain that I helped her to make. In return, I will treasure the Elmo key chain and not write my name on it as I dedicate this key chain to her and I'd like to say, " Angel girl, Elmo is for you and me. "
I didn't want to leave the center too soon, but alas, we left with a heavy heart. Even though we only spent 3 memorable hours but we grew closer. I am very thankful to the seniors who took the effort to create this kind of event as it got me thinking.
I am and should be even more grateful with everything I have, even though I've hit rock bottom and fell down for a number of times, having scars and bruises and still trying to walk properly, hoping that I could run again, like I used to. I'll try to have the determination and high spirit as those kids have in going through their lives at such age. In retrospect, at their age, I was living a normal and comfortable life, no worries as I was only a child yet they are trying their best to continue living and hoping to grow up and live better lives despite all the scars and bruises, which are worst than mine which they had when they were younger.
On the way back to Shah Alam, I gazed out the bus window and while listening to piano instrumentals on my playlist, something struck me, like lightning. I can't recall at some age, I wanted to pursue a career in the medical field and when I am older and have enough funds to live a comfortable but normal life, I would love to be a volunteer in any non-profit organizations, just to give back to the community. With today's experience, I will try my best to realize that dream, hoping that I could present a gift to humanity and may all you people out there have the opportunity to experience something similar like I did so that you could increase your awareness with these issues.This is indeed an eye-opening experience and I wanted so badly to go for next week's session but then I decided to give a chance to the other volunteers hoping that they'll experience the same thing as I did.
I won't be revealing what those kids have gone through and I do hope you respect my decisions.
No matter this program was unapproved by our college administration, it was worth it. I am willing to go through anything if I get into trouble with the administrative board for participating this event.
Don't judge just yet. You haven't read my story. This post may be soporific. Just bear with me, if you refuse to do so, you know what to do.
Despite feeling unwell, I still turn up for today's event and I am very grateful indeed for doing so. Even though the event wasn't approve by the college administration board, we, this group of noble youth decided to go on with the program.
We made a special visit to a school for children of special backgrounds. The program started yesterday but I couldn't participate since I had to sit for Calculus 1 test 2.
The journey started at about 9 am and we arrived at Sentul Boulevard 45 minutes later. Thankfully the traffic was smooth all the way. Before meeting the kids, we had a briefing and practiced the movements and the chorus of You Raise Me Up and Heads, Shoulders, Knees and Toes with the accompaniment of 2 acoustic guitars played by 2 seniors.
After practicing, we saw some kids coming down the stairs, who were ecstatic to see us. We gathered our things and went upstairs.While going up the stairs I felt anxious and a little daunted as I was about to have fun with kids. It's not that I'm not good with them but the fact that it's been a while since I played with kids for quite sometime and I was worried that I was unable to relate to them. To be frank, my childhood is way epic than those of kids these days, even though iPads, Angry Birds, The Avengers haven't existed at that time. The moment I entered classroom, I smiled when I saw boys and girls in school uniforms most probably lower primary school kids with the looks of anticipation to meet us.
A senior reintroduced yesterday's volunteers and introduced today's team to the kids. That warm, fuzzy feeling you get when you introduce yourself in front of an audience, and they greet you back. After breaking the ice, we started with a simple game, Tied In Knots, where you are in groups of 4 or more, cross your arms on front of you and grab the other person's hand and try to form a circle. Then we sang Head, Shoulders, Knees and Toes with movements and also You Raise Me Up chorus twice.
Subsequently, each volunteer was assign to at least 2 kids for the 1 hour reading session. I enjoyed reading WITH 2 adorable girls, probably aged 7-8. Even though it seems too mainstream to read fairy tales especially Cinderella, Snow White and Rapunzel whenever there's any reading program or session with children, I had fun reading with them even though the ending to the 3 stories are similar where the heroin falls in love and get married with prince charming. The girls most probably from a neighboring country as they talked to each other in between the stories in some foreign language and I can only smile while listening to them.
When the 1 hour period ended, we started with the arts and craft session by making a simple key chain. I helped out the 2 girls by handling the scissors whilst they draw on the colored foam (unsure what that material was). The other senior conducted that session and showed us some examples: a flower, the red angry bird and a smiley face. I was awed with their creativity as they drew hearts,sunflowers and an angel. I was indeed very touched with that. "She must've gone through a lot," I said to myself.
We shared the scissors and double sided tape with another group which was really time consuming to wait for our turn to use those instruments. The volunteers were also given the same material to create our own key chains.
Since I ran out of time and materials because I was helping out the whole time and I gave my materials to those 2 girls, my key chain was the one I showed you in the photo above. Whilst the other kids completed their masterpiece and helping each other to clean up, I was still doing the final touches for the girl who drew the angel. I didn't want to miss a chance so I grabbed the pink material and orange marker, drew Elmo's face and cut it out. The angel girl asked me where should she paste the Elmo since she already completed her key chain. I paused for a moment and solemnly I told her that Elmo was mine.
I should've. I should've given her my Elmo and pasted it behind her beautiful angel-surrounded-by-hearts -and -roses key chain. I really feel bad for not doing so. Why on earth was I so selfish to the child who loved my drawing of roses for her, which do not appear like roses and also the child who went through life more than I did at such a young age?
I don't deserve to be called a human for doing so. I feel bad for unable to pronounce her name correctly even though she had her name tag on. During the reading session, I only called her "Girl" and "Dear" and I was too ignorant to read and remember her name even though she wrote it on her key chain.
I do hope I am able to be remembered and forgiven for my wrong doings and as compensation, the key chain that I helped her to make. In return, I will treasure the Elmo key chain and not write my name on it as I dedicate this key chain to her and I'd like to say, " Angel girl, Elmo is for you and me. "
I didn't want to leave the center too soon, but alas, we left with a heavy heart. Even though we only spent 3 memorable hours but we grew closer. I am very thankful to the seniors who took the effort to create this kind of event as it got me thinking.
I am and should be even more grateful with everything I have, even though I've hit rock bottom and fell down for a number of times, having scars and bruises and still trying to walk properly, hoping that I could run again, like I used to. I'll try to have the determination and high spirit as those kids have in going through their lives at such age. In retrospect, at their age, I was living a normal and comfortable life, no worries as I was only a child yet they are trying their best to continue living and hoping to grow up and live better lives despite all the scars and bruises, which are worst than mine which they had when they were younger.
On the way back to Shah Alam, I gazed out the bus window and while listening to piano instrumentals on my playlist, something struck me, like lightning. I can't recall at some age, I wanted to pursue a career in the medical field and when I am older and have enough funds to live a comfortable but normal life, I would love to be a volunteer in any non-profit organizations, just to give back to the community. With today's experience, I will try my best to realize that dream, hoping that I could present a gift to humanity and may all you people out there have the opportunity to experience something similar like I did so that you could increase your awareness with these issues.This is indeed an eye-opening experience and I wanted so badly to go for next week's session but then I decided to give a chance to the other volunteers hoping that they'll experience the same thing as I did.
I won't be revealing what those kids have gone through and I do hope you respect my decisions.
No matter this program was unapproved by our college administration, it was worth it. I am willing to go through anything if I get into trouble with the administrative board for participating this event.
Friday, June 08, 2012
Thursday, June 07, 2012
WhatsApp!
Greetings everyone. I've been having conversations via WhatsApp text messages, 3 days in a row.
You might say. "So, what?"
I say, "I have nothing else better so say in this post. I just want to keep this blog as active as possible, no matter how trivial the posts are."
No like it? Well, you see that red x icon on the top most right part of your monitor/screen? Be my guest to click it.
No matter how trivial things are, if it comes to those people I care and cherish, it means a lot to me.
I repeat this, one more time, once again. You can count on me. I am and will always be there for you. You. And you. You too. Not to forget , you. Yeah you, over there.
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| I insist putting this image here, for no apparent reason. |
You might say. "So, what?"
I say, "I have nothing else better so say in this post. I just want to keep this blog as active as possible, no matter how trivial the posts are."
No like it? Well, you see that red x icon on the top most right part of your monitor/screen? Be my guest to click it.
No matter how trivial things are, if it comes to those people I care and cherish, it means a lot to me.
I repeat this, one more time, once again. You can count on me. I am and will always be there for you. You. And you. You too. Not to forget , you. Yeah you, over there.
Wednesday, June 06, 2012
I'm Always There For You.
I knew it was a blessing in disguise for not attending the event that I anticipated for the past week: ATUSA's Show Me Your Art Night. I might regret my actions in the future but I was grateful that I got the chance to digress with 2 of my superb partners-in-crime. Man, I really miss those moments. Thank you partners-in-crime.
Mom even confided in me with her incident with a silly old lady who keeps parking her vehicle in front of our house. The thing is Mom accidentally bumped into her car. Thankfully mom's car didn't have any scratch at all. Mom being civilized told the lady the whole incident. The problem is this lady is too silly, after Mom explained everything, after her car being dented and all, only then she insist to move her car somewhere else. Mom said, if she knew that lady would be as silly as that, she wouldn't tell her about the incident and save 350bucks for something worthy. Dad even gave the lady a piece of his mind since that incident, the car parking in front of our house part, happens almost every week, whenever the lady visits her sister who is my neighbor.
And at the moment, I'm being grateful that I'm being chosen by a partner-in-crime to discuss some important matter. I am indeed honored and glad that I could always be there for anyone for almost anytime. Besides, I am feeling kinda lonely here and I'm tired of being accompanied by mosquitoes, heat as a result of global warming and sorry to say, Calculus.
No matter what, I am and will always be there for you. Yes. You. You. And you. You too.
Mom even confided in me with her incident with a silly old lady who keeps parking her vehicle in front of our house. The thing is Mom accidentally bumped into her car. Thankfully mom's car didn't have any scratch at all. Mom being civilized told the lady the whole incident. The problem is this lady is too silly, after Mom explained everything, after her car being dented and all, only then she insist to move her car somewhere else. Mom said, if she knew that lady would be as silly as that, she wouldn't tell her about the incident and save 350bucks for something worthy. Dad even gave the lady a piece of his mind since that incident, the car parking in front of our house part, happens almost every week, whenever the lady visits her sister who is my neighbor.
And at the moment, I'm being grateful that I'm being chosen by a partner-in-crime to discuss some important matter. I am indeed honored and glad that I could always be there for anyone for almost anytime. Besides, I am feeling kinda lonely here and I'm tired of being accompanied by mosquitoes, heat as a result of global warming and sorry to say, Calculus.
No matter what, I am and will always be there for you. Yes. You. You. And you. You too.
Tuesday, June 05, 2012
Factoids of Me. Part 1.
It's not that I'm selfish or unwilling to share my knowledge or anything like that. Sometimes (most of the time, actually)
Don't be offended when I reject when you randomly offer food to me. It's just that my hands are not clean, unless you offer me food when I'm also eating at that moment. I always wash my hands when necessary since I have poor immune system. If I don't do so, especially before eating, I'll definitely end up having a sore throat and ulcers.
When I'm feeling down, I listen to this:
I'm an introvert. Oh yeah, you know that already. Did I mention I'm pathetic? Yeah, I did. Pathetic me.
I use the word I excessively. I'm unsure whether I is a word (which refers to me). See what I mean?
I guess that's enough factoids of the day, in case you are bored to death or something like that.
Page 157 of 366.
Perambulating for the past few days was fun, especially with le family. It's been almost 3 months since I last come home for any breaks but I was willing to stay until the end of summer and check out of this place for good.
I was reluctant to do any Calculus since I arrived in Shah Alam yesterday afternoon. I was too preoccupied with my latest tome, which I completed reading earlier this afternoon:
It was indeed another good book that I do not mind reading over and over again in the future.
Google it up or go to the nearest bookstore to get this book, or you can borrow it from me. No worries.
I guess I'll lay low with the books but I have another one, to keep me company in the future (most probably tomorrow) :
During my perambulation period, I played with foursquare. At first it was just to have fun but then, when I checked the leaderboard, I was some sort of competing with a friend.
I was unsure le friend/ partner-in-crime did the same thing for the same reason(s). But now, I no longer bother about that.
I was reluctant to do any Calculus since I arrived in Shah Alam yesterday afternoon. I was too preoccupied with my latest tome, which I completed reading earlier this afternoon:
It was indeed another good book that I do not mind reading over and over again in the future.
Google it up or go to the nearest bookstore to get this book, or you can borrow it from me. No worries.
I guess I'll lay low with the books but I have another one, to keep me company in the future (most probably tomorrow) :
During my perambulation period, I played with foursquare. At first it was just to have fun but then, when I checked the leaderboard, I was some sort of competing with a friend.
I was unsure le friend/ partner-in-crime did the same thing for the same reason(s). But now, I no longer bother about that.
Friday, June 01, 2012
Greetings, June 2012!
Hey. Hey Hey June! Wow it's already the middle of the year. Just wow.
I shall log off now as I'd like to get ready to perambulate again. Take care, everyone.
I shall log off now as I'd like to get ready to perambulate again. Take care, everyone.
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